End of a decade.

I don't think this post will be a reflection on the past decade, otherwise i would explode from the nostalgia. Currently, i feel like i dont have an skills. I not only want, i need, to get better at sailing and photography. I need to. I need to learn another language, so there is something that I myself am good at. A hobby, a release from life when it gets too mundane, too worrisome, to stop me from over-analyzing everything. I need to start. What did i learn in psych, that you need 10 yrs to become an expert. I need to work on that.

I have to call Bill and Pat, correction i NEED to, in february. I need to. I need to go to do an internship somewhere, i think in America. I need to read more. Passion grows out of an interest for something, it isnt something you are necessarily born with. I need to remember that. Seriously.

p.s effects of the keyboard-remember for yr 4.


On to my life. It has being way to hectic, in a strangly lovely way. Driving gives me so much freedom, and i love that fact that i can do more things that went on hold during the term. I still feel trapped though, i really need to meet more Australians, not just focus on people like Hermann and Sanna who are going home soon. Its so depressing because i feel like they are more real then any of my Australian friends. Fuck that. Maybe i should list what ive been doing? Avatar with the Germans-so good. I love Germans, oops there i go again. But seriously they are always on time, always up for a laugh and love doing things properly. Ive been...oh dear what have i been doing? Ive been going to peoples house sittings and watching movies, going to lunches and breakfasts, zoos, nights out. So much. Pity i cant remember the exact details :( Last night was xmas eve, and i went to greengate this hotel up north. Aside from L getting ridiculously drunk, it was a lovely night full of sleezy men and drunk friends :P I was sober so i kind of knew they were drunk but i didnt at the same time; i guess i didnt know the extent of how drunk they were.

Haha polly is sitting at my feet, gotta love that dog.

Ciao for now, and MERRY CHRISTMAS!

LOVE B.